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OH WRETCHED MAN THAT I AM

May 29, 2010
Luke 17:10 “So likewise ye, when ye shall have done all those things which are commanded you, say, We are unprofitable servants: for we have done that which is are duty to do.”
It’s been a most interesting week in which I was able to get into the streets five times in four days. South Bend on Tuesday, Three Rivers on Wednesday, Kalamazoo on Thursday, and visits to both South Bend and Elkhart on Friday. Despite the incredible hecticity in our lives, these windows of opportunity opened up; allowing for that which weighs heavily on my heart to be carried out. It almost seemed as if the Lord was altering the passing of time as to facilitate these endeavors to reach as many as possible before the collapse of everything familiar. One would think that a feeling of supernatural joy would be present as the words of life were distributed far and wide, however, such has not been the case. In fact, there’s been an almost overwhelming feeling of unworthiness and despair. Memories of past failures, coupled with constant reminders of present shortcommings have left me in a place where I wonder why the Lord even tolerates such a one as myself. Even in the streets, it sometimes seemed as if I was mishandling one encounter after another.
The answer; or at least part of the answer came in the latter part of the week as I was parking the truck. (I don’t remember where it was; I’ve done a lot of parking this week) It’s actually an answer to a longstanding petition which I had expected to be addressed in another fashion; that being a desire for greater understanding of our great salvation through Jesus. These memories of past failures (which God has placed into the sea of forgetfulness) and current wrestlings serve to emphasize the truth that all of our righteousnesses are as filthy rags. We are absolutely “not deserving” of eternal life and the passage “That no flesh should glory in his presence.” (I Corinthians 1:29) has been consistantly returning to the forefront. We need Jesus every bit as much today as we did the hour in which we first believed. Despite what could be labeled a week of incredible victories in the physical realm, the truth is that I deserve to be forever separated from the presence of the Lord,  as do we all.
Lamentations 3:22 “It is of the LORD’S mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.”
This understanding does two things. First, it reveals how great the Lord Jesus is; that he would step out of eternity, allow himself to be tempted in all points as we are, and then endure the cross to pay for the sins of all with his own innocent blood. We cannot fathom a love of this magnitude; and yet it’s because of this love that we can now live forever. One of the tracts that are routinely used makes the statement “God does the saving; all of it.” We love him because he first loved us and we serve him; not to add to the finished work of calvary (which is impossible) but because we love him. This past week has been physically exhausting, (especially Friday) and yet I thoroughly enjoy engaging in that which has been placed on my heart. The physical demands are as nothing.
Secondly, this understanding will (or SHOULD)  prevent us from taking on an attitude of spiritual pride. This is something that I’ve battled in the past and must continually be on the lookout for. Spiritual pride is one of the ugliest forms of self-absorbtion that there is, and over the years, it has secured the downfall of multitudes. It was the primary ingrediant in the rebellion that caused Lucifer and a third of the angels to forfeit their first habitation. Their dwelling was in paradise; in the very presence of the God, and yet they chose a path of rebellion. (what kind of promises did Lucifer make, that convinced a third of the angels to turn on their Creator?) Subsequently; every sorrow and every act of ill-will that the world has ever known can be traced to a single moment:
Luke 10:18 “And he said unto them, I beheld Satan as lightening fall from heaven.”
John 8:44 “Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. he was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it.”
Hebrews 3:12-13 “Take heed, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief, in departing from the living God.
But exhort one another daily, while it is called To day; lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulness of sin.”

I think that much of what’s gone on this week has been a placing of things into perspective. A series of unpleasant memories and revelations which show just how ungodly the old man is. In this flesh dwells no good thing and as such, the old song “I Need Thee every Hour” speaks the truth. The purpose has not been to cause despair over sins forgotten and shortcommings present, but rather so show how great Jesus is. Such understanding also serves to get “self” out of the way as we become more diligent in seeking the Lord in all matters. It can be a disasterous thing when we operate from our own understanding as we see a tiny portion of a much larger picture. We must be atuned to the gentle promptings of the Holy Spirit and be willing to adjust accordingly.  
Well, I need to be going for now. One thing that hasn’t really been adressed here is the issue of lateness. The push to get into the streets has been with a sense of urgency. Time is simply running out on this generation. We don’t have decades of continuance; wherein we can be about the Fathers business when it fits our schedule. The end of the age is here and the return of Jesus is at hand. May we all strive to die daily to self and be about those issues which have eternal significance.
Blessings always in Jesus name.
Hebrews 7:24-26 “But this man, because he continueth ever, hath an unchangeable priesthood.
Wherefore he is able also to save them to the uttermost that come to God by him, seeing he ever liveth to make intercession for them
For such an high priest became us, who is holy, harmless, undefiled, separate from sinners, and made higher than the heavens.”
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6 comments

  1. Time is simply running out on this generation. We don’t have decades of continuance; wherein we can be about the Fathers business when it fits our schedule. The end of the age is here and the return of Jesus is at hand. May we all strive to die daily to self and be about those issues which have eternal significance.

    How true, Timbob. Even reading the news gives me a feeling of imminence and urgency. Soon. (My post of several days ago on the feet of iron and clay — you should have a look.) It’s the strangest, most surreal thing imaginable to see all these events playing out in front of me; things I’ve read about and expected from childhood, yet seeing them happen in the flesh is an experience not to be comprehended.

    BTW, I’m moving my blog to http://www.journeyintotheson.com. Not that I’m unhappy with wordpress, but for a little more creative freedom in design. Haven’t figured out how to take advantage of that yet, though, but it’s only been one day after all. 😉

    Love, Cindy


  2. David Meyers is not doing well. He may go back to the hospital. 😦


  3. i’ll send u an e-mail


  4. last trumpet is out


  5. Hi Cindy. Thanks so much for stopping by. I’ll visit the new site and the post mentioned when time permits. Time is so very short. It’s why I’m trying to get into the streets at every opportunity and why this venue has taken a back seat. It’s partly due to the incredible hecticity in our lives at the moment, but due also to the need to reach as many as possible. I’m minded to keep this site going as long as possible; even though it may experience times of inactivity.

    Thanks so much for stopping by. Blessings always in Jesus name.


  6. Hi Code. I finally got around to checking e-mails today. Thanks so much for the update and I’ll keep the situation in prayer. I’ll reply when time permits. Also, as is commonplace, I’ve given out copies of the Last Trumpet Newsletter to folks who routinely ask for it. The list keeps getting longer. In reading the June issue, it seems as though pastor Meyers hasn’t missed a step; despite going through surgery.

    Thanks so much for staying in contact. It’s always a real encouragement to hear from you.

    Blessings always in Jesus name.



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